Shake Out
“It will all shake out” she said, with a straight face. This woman doesn’t know me well – she’s a friend of a friend, and she’s an MS RDN and has gobs of information/advice I currently want. I stalked the RD because I needed some info on masters programs – I wanted to see my friend too. She teaches community nutrition classes at my work’s culinary campus, and the RD was helping out with the class. I could have emailed the RD directly, but its hard to ignore a fangirl when she’s right in front of you.
Anyhoo, once I had her attention I forgot nearly every question I was going to ask her. I had rehearsed them in my head out in the hall so I didn’t sound like a moron (yep, still managed to) but she was gracious enough to answer the few I could verbalize coherently. Apparently masters degrees are a good thing, and its OK if I get one. I won’t regret getting it, she says. I briefly explained to her that one of the internship programs I want to apply for has a coordinated masters program, and I am unsure of the commitment (time and funding). I have to take the GRE before I apply too. Of course it depends on if I even get matched at all, much less that particular program. You know what she says to me? She says, “don’t worry, things tend to shake out.” The nerve! The unmitigated gall! The infuriating confidence!
She’s right, of course. This isn’t the first time I’ve heard this advice, I just can’t accept it. My overactive imagination wants to plan for every possible outcome, and the Universe just laughs at me and does whatever it wants. The situation usually ends up OK and I feel foolish for overthinking/doubting it.
She couldn’t come up with my name. I’m not certain she even recognized me (we’ve met several times) and I don’t care. I don’t need to be important – I just want to know the choices I make are good ones, and the only people who can tell me that are the ones who have gone through it. Maybe its time I stop fretting and just trust it will shake out. I’m not going to stop stalking RDs though – it builds my faith up big time.