Spring Cancellation

On March 23 I got kicked out of my job. Not fired, just told to stay home. The entire state got told to stay home. We try to not glue ourselves to the 24/7 bad news cycle, but it’s difficult to not be paranoid when you have to go to the store or get a package delivered, or sniffle from allergies and wonder if you have it. The months ahead of us we have no roadmap for. When will it be safe to return to work? See my friends? Family? When will my proctor location open up so I can take my tests again? How long will this go on?

Lots of things for lots of people have been cancelled. My heart breaks for many of my friends who have or will financially succumb to this extended period of shutdown, as their livelihood depends on foot traffic. My husband and I are blessed to be able to stay home; many others must work and risk exposure. I pray for them every night. My brothers-in-law both are first responders (fire + police) and they don’t have a choice.

I’ve maintained a sleep-TV-eat-study-TV-bed cycle for 6 days straight. I don’t lack for stuff to do during quarantine; I know many other people going stir-crazy because their hobbies involve other people. My hobbies involve reading and cooking (how convenient) and gardening, which I can’t start yet. I plan to use all of this time to absolutely crush the rest of this semester – let’s see how far I can get.

I am very sad that graduation was cancelled. I looked forward to that event a great deal, and the thought of being there (much less travelling to CO for the first time) spurned me on in some tough times. Now, when I hit that “submit” button on my last exam in 5 weeks it will mean nothing more than I don’t have homework the next day. Diploma’s in the mail. *shrugs*

Match Day is next week Sunday. We’ll have an answer either way, of the end of this journey. Does it end in May? Or, does it continue in August? The efforts of the last four years come down to this. Choose me.